My Latest Obsession...

Who knew?    I have been making Zendalas since I accidentally found a YouTube video about one yesterday.  I didn't have a clue as to what they really were but I think that they are a zen something or other that should help you free your creative spirit and nurture your soul...I really love doing them...I love doing things in black pen and I have been having amazing fun finding different black pens to use.   I am too lazy to take a photo of one of mine but here is a the video of  the one that first caught my attention...it is a totally fascinating art form.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C4Nlz4XMxcs

OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!

I have four followers!!!  I want to reach out to them and call them and thank them...I need to send them homemade cookies or flowers or at least a thank you note...in lieu of that...thank you followers!!!  Hey...thanks so much...

Especially since I have yet to find my voice and my focus.  I think that for now my blog is just going to be a blog about sometimes having something to share.  Let's take today.  For instance.   I have not been  feeling sad lately about being a tragic orphan but today I missed my mom.   I used to talk to her every day...she knew all about my students at school...she would ask about Jake and Jack...the zebra finches...and Lucy...and I would want to entertain her with funny stories just to hear her giggle.   How sad is that...how sad am I today...sad...yep...just a little sad.   I am such a happy person...I am still happy even when I am sad...isn't that sort of sad?   I have framed lovely photos of her all around the house...beautiful lovely framed photos of my wonderful mom...who died not even a year ago.   What worries me is that someday I will not feel sad...do you get used to not having a mom?   I cannot even imagine it but there are days now when I don't feel sad...and then I feel guilty about not feeling sad...mix that in with actually being sad...today is like a rainy day in my soul...

Sunday...relaxing and renewing my spirit...Sunday

Can I just say that I am so proud of myself...it was just a simple thing but the fact that it is accomplished is so amazing to me...I began blogging the way I do everything...way too much of everything everywhere!!!  I wanted stuff on my blog...I wanted lights and buttons and whistles...and I had lights and buttons and whistles everywhere...it took me a few days...I can be brilliant at times but quite dense sometimes...to figure out that when the blog guide said drag and drop...that is what it meant...so I have been dragging and dropping for most of the day...I am such an organized person...I wanted no clutter and neat things in my sidebar...so I reluctantly rid myself of some of my blog bling...and I now have a kinder gentler more meaningful blog...for me...now I am trying to understand why I cannot find spellcheck anywhere...shouldnt' there be a spellcheck?  Oh...I have one follower and I am not even paying her...I know it must be an accident but someone actually knows I exist in the Blogworld...Thank you so much!!!

Saturday...lovely lovely Saturday...

All of the Santas are put away...lovingly in their boxes...Lucy and I said good bye to our tree...it is resting on the deck for a few days...these are the indications that Christmas has really come and is really gone...my first one ever without my mom and dad to visit call and talk to...

Friday...

It is just mildly snowing here...geese and ducks are walking very carefully across the pond...I raced out earlier to fill the birdfeeders.  I should be putting away Santas and snowmen and all the things that need to be put away after Christmas but LucyGrace and I are lounging.  We are reading and resting and writing as we watch tv.   It is a lazy day and I don't want it to be anything but that.  Lucy firmly believes that this heating pad is hers...it is supposed to be for my hurt knee but she refuses to budge from it and I don't have the heart to move her...