Well...the books are ever present...it's always about deciding what to read next...thoughts...I probably have way too many of them and I need to start focusing on one day at a time. I have to admit here that I am a little down. I think it's because of the antibiotics...every single day at 6AM, NOON, and 10PM...for two weeks. The last one will hopefully be next Tuesday. I should not be complaining because it's Den who bears the brunt of giving them to me...through something called a pick line? It's just that I see more and more of my life being removed from me. I know this is short term but it is really difficult to deal with.
I had such a great talk with my primary doctor yesterday...he helped me see things in perspective and I am going to start some antidepressants to help me get through some of this. Everyone agrees my path hasn't been that easy. I cry far too much, I am sad, I thought I could be ok staying at home and dealing with this but it's not working the way I thought it would. My plan is a bust...I should have let family come but now it's too late. I thought I would be stronger...I thought I would keep my humor...I thought I would stay more like myself. But it's not happening. I am positive yet sad. My trusted fantasy books and the food channel are not helping me the way I thought they would.
I pray, I hope, I wish and yet I am still sad.
Book rundown...
Finished this but it was far from entertaining...
Starting this and so far it's enchanting...
I do have someone special to watch over me...
I am ok...I willl be ok...
Hugs,
Patty
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