My Latest Obsession...

Who knew?    I have been making Zendalas since I accidentally found a YouTube video about one yesterday.  I didn't have a clue as to what they really were but I think that they are a zen something or other that should help you free your creative spirit and nurture your soul...I really love doing them...I love doing things in black pen and I have been having amazing fun finding different black pens to use.   I am too lazy to take a photo of one of mine but here is a the video of  the one that first caught my attention...it is a totally fascinating art form.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C4Nlz4XMxcs

OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!

I have four followers!!!  I want to reach out to them and call them and thank them...I need to send them homemade cookies or flowers or at least a thank you note...in lieu of that...thank you followers!!!  Hey...thanks so much...

Especially since I have yet to find my voice and my focus.  I think that for now my blog is just going to be a blog about sometimes having something to share.  Let's take today.  For instance.   I have not been  feeling sad lately about being a tragic orphan but today I missed my mom.   I used to talk to her every day...she knew all about my students at school...she would ask about Jake and Jack...the zebra finches...and Lucy...and I would want to entertain her with funny stories just to hear her giggle.   How sad is that...how sad am I today...sad...yep...just a little sad.   I am such a happy person...I am still happy even when I am sad...isn't that sort of sad?   I have framed lovely photos of her all around the house...beautiful lovely framed photos of my wonderful mom...who died not even a year ago.   What worries me is that someday I will not feel sad...do you get used to not having a mom?   I cannot even imagine it but there are days now when I don't feel sad...and then I feel guilty about not feeling sad...mix that in with actually being sad...today is like a rainy day in my soul...

Sunday...relaxing and renewing my spirit...Sunday

Can I just say that I am so proud of myself...it was just a simple thing but the fact that it is accomplished is so amazing to me...I began blogging the way I do everything...way too much of everything everywhere!!!  I wanted stuff on my blog...I wanted lights and buttons and whistles...and I had lights and buttons and whistles everywhere...it took me a few days...I can be brilliant at times but quite dense sometimes...to figure out that when the blog guide said drag and drop...that is what it meant...so I have been dragging and dropping for most of the day...I am such an organized person...I wanted no clutter and neat things in my sidebar...so I reluctantly rid myself of some of my blog bling...and I now have a kinder gentler more meaningful blog...for me...now I am trying to understand why I cannot find spellcheck anywhere...shouldnt' there be a spellcheck?  Oh...I have one follower and I am not even paying her...I know it must be an accident but someone actually knows I exist in the Blogworld...Thank you so much!!!