Sunday, May 13, 2012

I will Always Miss Her...

It's still amazing to me that my mom is no longer alive...it has been almost three years...that I have not seen or touched or talked to her. I used to keep her phone number on our phone's directory...right up there with the most called numbers...but we just got new phones and I didn't add that number. That felt like a huge step for me. When my sister was here we didn't really talk about her very much...it's as though the memories don't fade but they are less relevant? We are not adding new thoughts of her...just going over old ones.

Den said that although I probably look more like my mom my sister has more of her mannerisms...I didn't even notice this until Den mentioned them to me...she taps her fingers the way my mom did, she says things that my mom said...even her facial expressions are identical to my mom's. And her funny intolerance of certain things...are solely my mom's.

I always thought that when you no longer had a living mom you were sort of orphaned...but I read something the other day that made me truly realize that she is always here...that even without her physical presence...Mother's Day is still a day to celebrate her...
and so I will.

Happy Mother's Day, Mom!!!
I had her to myself for four lovely spoiled years until she decided to unmake me an only child!!!
Darn it!!!
Just teasing Paula, John and Jim!





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13 comments:

  1. I'm sure today's a kind of sad day for you. I'd wanted to be with my mother today but it just didn't work out. At least I got to spend time with her on the phone.

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    1. Yes...it is sad...I still miss her.

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  2. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
    *hug*
    While my mama is still going strong, I lost my dad a year ago. So I can relate.
    *hugs*

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  3. Ahh...so you're the eldest...yes...they never really leave us do they? My mother used to say: "I'm going to tell you things now, while I'm able, so that when I'm gone, it'll be just like I'm still here--you'll know just what I'd say about a matter." And it's true. It's so true. She gave me great advice about so many things, I do know what she would say...

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  4. What a touching post. You really moved me with this post- I have tears in my eyes. It is obvious that your mom was a wonderful woman and I am glad you know that she is still here with you in other ways. Sending you a hug!
    ~Stephanie

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    1. Thank you...it is sweet of you to say this...

      I love the hug!

      Hugging right back at you!!!

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  5. My mom died four years ago right after Mother's Day, so we'd had one last celebration, albeit a muted one. She was getting weaker by then.

    It doesn't seem possible that it's been that long....

    I loved your photos and how you've memorialized her.

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  6. I am right there with you, regarding my Dad. It is difficult to come to terms that you should delete the email address, the phone number... etc Almost four (how did I survive?) Four! years later I still can't bring myself to do it.

    But, I do know he does these spirit-fly-by's.. he is always here. In one way or another.

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    1. Oh I do love the thought of a spirit fly by!!!

      Thank you!

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  7. I don't think I am anything like my mom but I see little bits of her in my daughter which surprises me because my daughter has never met my mother.

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