I don't know how it happened.
I used to be so carefree.
My mom always called me last minute Patty.
But all of a sudden I am a devoted list maker. I make a list every day!!!
I think I am getting rigid with my lists. This cannot be happening to me.
My daily routine is sort of scheduled and I like it that way...that is scary!!!
I plan and prep dinner as though I am on the Food Channel.
The table is set for dinner before noon.
Chores are done in a timely manner.
This is making me sad...I have lost my fun side...I am not relaxed until all of the little itty bitty daily nothings are done.
I am becoming my mom...we would beg her to sit with us and talk or play but she was always cleaning.
I am not cleaning...according to my lovely husband...but I engage in many activities in any given day.
I play with Lucy. I sit on the deck and sun and read with Lucy. Lucy and I might snuggle down with a book and a nap. Lucy and I might walk aroung the 'hood.
I work out.
I lunch out.
I think about stuff.
I rearrange rooms.
I read lots of blogs.
I read lots of books.
And before I realize it...the day is done and I start it all over again...with a new list!!!
Do I need to seek professional help?