Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Peanut Butter Cookies And Life... one seems to make peanut butter cookies any more...none of the bakeries around us do and I need these to be so close to homemade that they appear homemade. I don't want to make them. Sigh! I hate cookie making. Look at these rough edges and the slightly misshapen form. The closest thing I found in my search yesterday was a peanut butter tart in a graham cracker crust with chocolate ganache and chopped peanuts mixed in but it won't be the same. I am giving my craving one more day and it will be gone! I hope!

Yesterday we tried something new with the kitties...we replaced two smallish beds with one big new has a yummy soft lining and an egg crate mattress. We just swapped it out and this was the result! However...within the next 10 minutes Roxie was somersaulting into Lucy and the peacefulness was ended. They don't seem to understand that they can spread out...when Roxie spreads out she uses the space to somersault into Lucy...Roxie is ever the annoying little sister. No matter what that bedroom chair is not mine any more. They have staked a claim.

I am still enjoying both of these books...


But I have barely started this one...

I have to share that I am scared today. Today is the official end to Chemo. I had my last one exactly three weeks ago. Since then I have had a cat scan and bloodwork and today I will talk to my oncologist. If everything is as it should be...there will be a longer time until I see him again. So...every pain or ache or anything weird will continue to freak me out. My job is to learn how to deal with all of this scary stuff.

I hope I can.













Tuesday, June 20, 2017

My Random Reading Continues...

Yesterday I read tons from these two books...

I seriously hate when the number of stars a book gets affects my thoughts about it. I thought that I had only heard really good things about Magpie Murders but its reviews are that readers either love it or hate it. I am really enjoying it but...those 3 star reviews are lurking in the back of my head! What makes me like this book?'s the same way with The Chalk Artist...readers either love it or hate it and compare it to this author's first book...The Cookbook Collector...which most readers really loved. However most readers are only lukewarmish about this one. Sigh!

This makes me seriously wonder why I choose the books I choose but it makes me understand why I read newer books fast and furiously. I am so fickle about books.

I would actually rather just talk about a book than review it. I love book talking!

Roxie has me trapped here for a while. She and Lucy often battle over this spot. Lucy is in her bed...but she will wake up...come over and give Roxie fake kisses to try and nudge her usually doesn't work with Roxie...Roxie will put her tiny hand on Lucy's head and push her away and Lucy will look at me sadly and retreat to the beds...the comfy, therapeutic heated beds with fresh soft blankets. Or...when Lucy gets up Roxie will race over to the bed that Lucy just left...and plop herself in it. By the time Lucy gets back to "her"'s occupied. And no one wants the empty perfectly fine other bed. Am I raising little tiny kitty divas? Is Roxie more controlling than Lucy? Is Lucy just gracefully giving in to the antics of her "little sister".

Den has poison ivy under his eye...we have to pick up Lucy's inhaler...I have to have a blood test...and our food plan for today is nonexistent other than a salad for lunch.





Monday, June 19, 2017

Monday Is Usually All About Books...

So...I am all over the place with books...kind of reading three at a time and they no longer have to be in different genres! I am soooooo excited about that! I can pick up a it...put it back down...then watch a little TV...pick up my shiny new that book for a while...then pick up another book! I used to think my sister in law was so wrong because this is the way she reads. But now I love this random reading! I am still a stickler for choosing the right books and finishing every book I start but I am proclaiming myself a Random Reader! Yahoo! Actually I am now a three at a time random reader!

I am reading this...when Roxie lets me. I love this one...Collin meets Nina. Collin draws on black chalkboards and doesn't care if his beautiful work gets erased. Nina is a new teacher who grades her student papers in Collin's restaurant but her father owns this virtual game...Everwhen...that everyone wants to play. I am at the part where Nina wants Collin to meet her father...that's all I know other than the game plays a huge role in this book...I think!

Reading this on my's a yummy sort of modern day cozy English mystery that starts off with a murder that doesn't look like a murder...yet. It's a comfy book and I am really into the characters. Some authors just do character descriptions so well and this author is one of them.

Plus I am reading this one, too...but I really only just started it...that's Den's homemade's so good in the afternoon.

Today felt like a regular normal day! I yearn for those! Treadmill and weights after Den's special berries and granola and yoghurt bowl for breakfast. Organic nitrate free hot dogs for lunch...yum! A little bit of food prep...I made a Dijon Balsamic Salad Dressing for our dinner salads. There was a post somewhere about recipes for 9 kind of ordinary salad was called Catalina...which I only remember as a Kraft or French's childhood fave. Was it red? Making that tomorrow.

Now we are showered and relaxed...reading and watching TV. The only sad thing is that I am craving peanut butter cookies! These were in the NYT today.

I want one badly!

So...that's my Monday...I am off to randomly choose a book and read.




Friday, June 16, 2017

A Different Day And Random Thoughts...

I can only say thank you...and it is a thank you from my all of my friends who had such positive words for me yesterday...I think it will take a while for me to calm down and actually live my life a little at a time...that's what I am trying to do...unfortunately sitting around waiting for my hair to grow sometimes isn't such a good thing!

But I am doing it anyway!

Still reading this...and while I don't love it...I also don't hate it...yet! It is one of those books that started off so good but now that I am in the middle of it I am tired of all of them...the pot smoking mom, the sister who is in the midst of an affair with her boss, the brother whose partner wants to bring a third person into their relationship. Ick! They are all supposed to attend their daughter/sister's wedding in England but everyone has issues with attending. If I am totally honest with myself I have to admit to not enjoying this book but I don't know what to do about it! So I keep on reading!

Up next?

No mood is weird and I have no clue what I want to read. This one? But it's even more family dysfunction...sigh! I might go back to some fluffy sweet beach books...

So...our week end will be a quiet's still hard to not have a dad to call on Father's Day...l will never get used to it...Den and I will tuck ourselves away and read and color and watch movies...I simply will not be able to really go out until I have a fistful of hair...I just can't. I know I disappoint Den every day by saying I will go somewhere with him but even if I go I can't leave the car. Sigh!

Aren't these sandals sweet? I want them...from Free People...


Hungry for baked pastas...but...ziti stacking? No way!

This one is's got cauliflower in it!
This one is straight up decadent! Yum!


Be back on Monday!




Thursday, June 15, 2017

Trying To Find A Calming Influence...

So...what I know about myself is that I have a tendency to forego any kind of peaceful calm for stress, tension and extreme fear and worry. That's where I am right now. I have to have an ordinary cat scan today but it has me totally freaking out. Last year at around this time I never knew what a cat scan I am way too familiar with them. Cat scans make sure that nothing evil is lurking in my body. But they make my imagination run head is filled with irrational what if's...I am scared, worried and again...I can't calm myself down. Sigh...I really cannot calm down. And I won't really know what any of it means until next Wednesday when we sit down with the oncologist. If everything is fine we go a longer time without a cat scan and seeing him. If things are not fine I freak out again. And this is my life from now on...other than waiting for my hair to grow. I don't have enough Dr.Whos, Bizarre Food Destinations, Diners Drive Ins and Dives, Bloodlines, Shadowhunters and Assistant Principals to keep my mind off of this stuff until next Wednesday. I can get a grip on this reality and then lose it in minutes. A kitty in my lap helps...Den helps...friends and family help...but ultimately this is mine to do alone.

I am so sorry for this not so happy post.

In the beginning they would let Den wear a protective suit and come in with me...I was so freaked out. I couldn't be flat on my back because I had a fear of not being able to breath after surgery...Den held my hand and kept me calm. I am past that now but just barely...just barely.

The scan will be over by ten...and I will be back home to calm down soon after that...hopefully!

I wonder if the radiologist can detect a massive vodka shot in the scan?

I need one!






Wednesday, June 14, 2017

What Happened?

So...have you ever had a night when you fell asleep and didn't really wake up until 6 ish but the only reason you woke up was because two normally sweet kitties were sort of fighting on your head? My kitties are so sweet but their kitty tummies tell them breakfast needs to be served at 6:00 AM! Every single day!

That was my night! I think it was Den's night, too!

The last thing I remember was watching TV and reading and then not watching TV and not reading. But...the more time my body has without Chemo the more normal my body I am sleeping the way I used to. I don't want to jinx anything but I seriously think I have a fairly fuzzy head. I have my look planned...I am going to wear buffs around my head while my hair grows's supposed to be fuzzy at first and then could be curly or wavy or a different color! I have a stash of these in all different colors...I am ready to rock these buffs!

Books! far this book is yummy! It's about a step brother and sister who really resent their really wealthy step sister and her dysfunction at its finest!

I love this cover!




Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Salad Days?

It is amazing that we were kind of cold last week but have been thrust into the midst of a heatwave yesterday and today. My hydrangea bushes are actually wilting when the sun is on them and then they pop up again in the far!

I love hydrangeas!

All I want to eat this week are cold things. Salads...sorbet...lemonade!

Especially Den's Lemonade that he fills with tons of grated frozen fresh good!

What I think I want to read...

this heat makes me yearn for dysfunction...this book is out in case you want to be dysfunctional along with me! Thank you, NetGalley!


I am a little sad, a little lost, a little bereft...but that's to be expected because I am basically sitting around waiting for my hair to grow. I really truly am. Chemo brings its own big bag of dysfunction. My mantra is one day at a time.




Monday, June 12, 2017


The one I am just finishing...


The one I just started...twins who don't speak to each they have weird dysfunctional habits.

The ones I just got...from Edelweiss...

All descriptions from Amazon...

"A mesmerizing debut psychological thriller full of delicious twists about a coolly manipulative woman who worms her way into the lives of a wealthy "golden couple" from Connecticut to achieve the privileged life she wants."



"Ruth Emmie Lang dazzles with her inventive and magical debut. Told with brains and heart, Beasts of Extraordinary Circumstance introduces a protagonist who is both mythical and relatable. Weylyn Grey leaves a lasting impression on everyone he meets, and he will on readers too."―Michelle Gable, New York Times bestselling author of A Paris Apartment and I'll See You in Paris


"A captivating debut about wealth, envy, and secrets: the story of five women whose lives are dramatically changed by the downfall of a financial titan"


"From the acclaimed author of Visitation Street, a visionary and masterful portrait of contemporary Los Angeles"

The one I can't get...yet...

"A marvel-a thrillingly intelligent, witty and tragic look at love and class in Manhattan."―Newsweek

That's my stash! And I am not really in the mood for any of them!




Friday, June 9, 2017


Last night our little squirrel friend walked himself into one of the safe traps...he spent the night there eating oranges and peanut butter. Today he is going to his new home. We are left with a chewed up window frame that Den has to figure out how to mend and we also have a less trustful attitude about the roofers who said our house was airtight. No animals could get in...ha!

And kitties are totally oblivious to any weird animal would think that they would sense something but neither one of them do. Roxie just skips along and wants to play and Lucy just sleeps through everything.

The one thing that came out of all this is total chaos in our house since Monday...lots of vacuuming and climbing into attics and Den says the basement is a mess from the squirrel...yep...the basement we've been trying to organize all year long...has chewed up stuff everywhere. And today our phone lines...don't work...everything else works but the phones say no lines...yet one more annoying thing to deal with. I am supposed to be resting! Getting strong! No stress! Ha!

Books...loving this. I don't quite know how I missed the first one!

I am kind of meandering through all of these books at the same unlike me.



It shocks me because I am a quarter of the way through each one!

I want a fig tree. Not sure why...

I want this...yum!


I want a creamy rice and chicken dinner...mmmmm!


I want new love this year is Antrhopopgie! And today everything is 20% off! to read and relax...try to figure out what I am actually reading instead of being all over the place.

Have an awesome weekend...see you on Monday!